today I see much more good than bad.
Lately I’ve been allowing myself to drown in self pity. Maybe self pity isn’t the right word, because there are many crazy, yucky things going on in life right now. HOWEVER, rather than focus on the blessings I have in my life, I’ve been dwelling on the bad, and that’s gotta change.
Today was a change. It actually started earlier this week when I found out I got another contract to write test questions for a company that produces standardized tests! Awesome! I haven’t even heard back on my first contract, but I’m assuming that they liked my work, or that it at least wasn’t awful, otherwise they wouldn’t have contacted me again. The thought of being “black balled” terrifies me, so I work hard! 🙂 I also found out that I’ve been invited to attend a training to learn how to write for the GED! That means, more contracts! Even more, just for attending, I get a sizeable honorarium. So, today I choose to focus on the fact that God is PROVIDING for my family in ways I never dreamed imaginable, rather than on the crummy economy.
Next: baby joys. I’ve been sick this time around. S.I.C.K. So much so, that I had to start taking nausea medicine. I tried very recently to stop taking it, but I ended up throwing up the next 24 hours. So, back to the medicine it is. Today I had my 12 week OB appointment. Heard the baby’s heartbeat with the doppler. Such a sweet, sweet sound! Makes all of the sickness, the food aversions, the fatigue, the moodiness, the “too fat for regular clothes, not big enough for maternity clothes” drama all fade away. Today I choose to focus on the miracle that is growing inside of me.
More happy things from today so far:
* Went to Half Price Books. Love it there. Found several of the books I had looked for at the library for super cheap, and several that I was not looking for, but they were so cute… and priced well! Spent under $25 and got three nice hardback books (with jackets intact), and several smaller board-style books. At a regular store, would have been WELL over $50. I love a bargain! 🙂
Opened a Pampered Chef catalog show because I didn’t have any shows scheduled for this month. I have to submit a certain amount every month to remain active. It’s not much, but it’s more than I would want to spend myself in order to maintain the active status. Opened it yesterday, already have 2/3 of the amount I need, and still have seven days to go! I’m excited, because I do enjoy doing Pampered Chef, but I don’t ever see myself as a hard-core saleslady. It’s just not my style. I’m glad that people respond to my more laid-back style of doing things! 🙂
And lastly… slept on freshly washed sheets last night. Ahhh… those are the best sleeps in the world, the smell of the fabric softener… means even more to me now with my pregnancy induced super sonic sense of smell…