5:30am is not my friend, but I keep hanging out with it.
I consider myself to be a morning person. Really, I do. IF by “morning”, you mean, “after 7am”.
Yes. Definitely a morning person.
I can even do 6-6:30 with ease.
5:30am, however, is not my friend. I have never liked 5:30am before, and yet, I am attracted to it for one main reason…
my kids are (usually) still asleep.
Not only are my kids asleep & my coffee pot awake, but the God that created the universe is also awake, and waiting for me… every day… at 5:30am.
Confession. I have not always accepted that 5:30am was “it” for me. Recently, however, I read a little booklet called My Heart — Christ’s Home. It described better than anything I’ve read a point of view that I had not much considered before. God’s point of view.
The trouble is that you have been thinking of the quiet time, of Bible study and prayer, as a means for your own spiritual growth. This is true, but you have forgotten that this time means something to me also. Remember, I love you. At a great cost I have redeemed you. I value your fellowship. Just to have you look up into my face warms my heart. Don’t neglect this hour if only for my sake. Whether or not you want to be with me, remember I want to be with you. I really love you! (all emphasis mine)
Ahhh… 5:30am is not there to torture me! It’s there because God loves ME! And, (because He’s God, and knows these things) it’s the ONLY time that works for both of us… and that’s what He wants. He wants BOTH of us there… not just him, hanging out, waiting around, hoping I’ll take notice.
Confession (#2). I have broken up with 5:30am multiple times. I’ve claimed that sleep was more important, or that chores were more important. All of that time, the God who created the universe was waiting. He is available anytime, but 5:30am is His favorite time to spend with ME. Just ME. I get to talk to Him, He gets to talk to me. It’s kind of awesome.
Confession (#3). I still don’t really LIKE 5:30am. We aren’t, and probably will not ever be best friends. But the benefits of a friendship with 5:30am is that I get some one-on-one time with God. I’ll take it. The days when I find it super difficult to get out of bed, I remember that Jesus is…
my guest. I invited him into my heart! He has come as my Savior and Friend to live with me.
My Heart — Christ’s Home
To not acknowledge 5:30am is to neglect the most important person in my life. I wouldn’t invite a friend over & then go clean my bathrooms. Why would I invite Jesus to abide in & with me and then refuse to spend time with him?
Confession (#4, and last). I’m sure I’ll break up with 5:30am again at some point during my life time. And, who knows, once the kids are grown and out of the house, I might even make friends with some new (more sane) hours of the day.
But for now, 5:30am & I are going to keep on hanging out. ‘Cause when we do, I get filled with what GOD wants for me, rather than filling myself with what I want for me.
And THAT, is worth the alarm buzzer every day.