Fasting: Week Two
I explained the purpose behind the fasting, length, what I’m fasting from, as well as the first 7 days HERE.
Day 8: I accidentally put sugar in my coffee this morning. Actually dumped it out & poured a new cup. Yup, that’s how little I desire sugar at this point.
Last night I had two exciting things happen. First was the discovery of a GOOD paleo cookie! Yes! Using almond flour and almond butter (& a few other things), a cookie that is so filling, and hits the spot as far as a “sweet treat” is concerned. Funny, because there is no sugar in them, either. 🙂
Second was that I was starting to get stressed out about something… a topic that has in the past led to a huge blow-up fight between me & Matt. Abiding in the Word & praying without ceasing work, folks, because rather than continue to nag at him for answers I wanted & he didn’t have OR drown my sorrows in some silly television show or book, I busted out my Bible & just asked God to speak to me about what I was feeling. AND, after reading in James, he did. 🙂 Of course, it wasn’t exactly what I WANTED to hear, but it was good nonetheless.
Day 9: So, for the duration of the fasting time, our pastor suggested that we read Isaiah 58 every day. Ahem… I did not. However, I DID happen to read it this particular day again, and was convicted of something I needed to be convicted of!
Yet on the day of your fasting, you do as you please and exploit all your workers. Your fasting ends in quarreling and strife, and in striking each other with wicked fists. You cannot fast as you do today and expect your voice to be heard on high Isaiah 58: 3-5
I may not be exploiting any workers, or literally striking people, but my words, oh my. My words certainly were striking others, and they were ugly.
What a timely reminder that this experience has been great, but Satan is still working overtime to distract me from the purpose. I am not bringing glory to God if I just eat differently. The actions that result from my inward change are what matters.
Day 10: I apparently did not set my alarm clock last night! So, when Matt woke me up at 6:50, I (for the first time ever) regretted that I had not been up since 5:15. I mean, I’ve woken early in the past, but the discipline is finally giving way to desire.
Day 11: All around good day. I was able to bring dinner to a friend who is going through a difficult time. Nothing is better than being the hands and feet of Jesus to another person.
In the morning while I was in the Word I was really shown in a new way that I am a way that God chooses to show his glory on the earth. I am not glorified myself, but I am a mirror that reflects God’s glory. He can’t have his glory reflected in a grimy, dirty, mirror. And, in my case, it usually becomes grimy with my own fingerprints before anything else. Trying to do it on my own. Trying to be strong, trying to be disciplined. All I really need to do is just let him do it all.
Day 12: Two kids sick, so Matt & I took turns going to church. I love worshipping with the Body of Christ!
Day 13: Have had a thought about doing something on my mind for a while. I’ve held off on acting on it because I didn’t feel like it was the right timing. Today, God showed me that NOW is the right time! Great for a number of reasons. First, because I’m just excited about what he’s doing in my life & in the lives of others. Second, because it showed me that he is acting out his perfect plan with precision. So many things on my heart that he has put on my heart, and yet NOW is not the time. And my heart cries out… “if not now, then WHEN???” Today he gave me his answer.
Day 14: Confession. Today was just one of those “blah” kind of days. I didn’t feel all that well, and my brain felt like it was made of sand.
just sifting through…
nothing proving to be a great importance.
And then, I heard my children playing. My middle child was setting himself up to be the hero of the game. He convinced his younger brother to do something to bother his sister, and then “came to the rescue” of his sister. (of course, he doesn’t know I heard all of it… ) 🙂
In a flash, I was reminded of one of my favorite verses… Colossians 1:13
For he has rescued us from the dominion of darkness and brought us into the kingdom of the Son he loves.
God set up a hero in our stories, Jesus. He didn’t have to manipulate the situation; we did that all on our own in our sin. He just chose to be the Rescuer. So thankful that his love for us extended to the Cross, where the Rescue happened. (Heb. 12:1-3).
If any one thought should stick in my sand-filled brain… I’m glad it’s that one.