Fasting: Week Three (final week!)
Day 15: The highlight of the day was probably going to Life Group. I love meeting with this group of people! Praying for our Life Group has been something that Matt and I chose to focus on as a priority during this fasting time. One of the things I’ve been focused on in particular is the size of our group & the need for it to “multiply” into two groups. About a year ago, our group was very large and Matt & I tried to force it to happen, and it was an ugly mess. Needless to say, our lesson has been learned! Although we can observe with our pitiful human eyes the need for a multiplication, we also understand in a fresh way that “our thoughts are not His thoughts, neither are our ways His ways” (Isaish 55:8-9). So, we’re praying for the Lord to reveal his timing to us, as well as his plan for how everything should happen… and learning about patience in the meanwhile. 🙂
Day 16: Just a normal sort of day. We had some abnormally warm weather today, so the kids & I walked to our neighborhood park to play for a bit. Then, we went next door to meet the new puppy of our neighbors. The sweet puppy did very well considering the onslaught of petting she received; although she did instinctively know to be wary of little Brady. 🙂
I was challenged by the Holy Spirit this morning to think about what it means to have a servant’s heart. Society does not treasure service in the same way that God does… just thinking about the differences between the two, and what that means for my daily life.
Day 17: I kind of can’t believe it’s already day 17! Seems like such a short time, and yet God has used this short time to dig into my heart and show me a picture of what he’s doing in the world… to the point that I HAVE to share it. Part of this is following the Great Commission in Matthew 28 and “making disciples of all nations”. Well, I don’t know about the “all nations” bit just yet, but I have seen the joy that comes through TRUE Christian discipleship, and I am eager to make disciples of Christ (here!), through the power of the Holy Spirit (a timely reminder of letting it be the Holy Spirit came the next morning, in 1 Corinthians 2:4)
Day 18: Technically, I read this last night, so it should count toward Day 17, but it’s going here, because I loved it so much…
..and the wonderful news is that Jesus has not stopped acting and speaking. He is resurrected and at work in our world. He is not idle, nor has he developed laryngitis.
– Richard J. Foster, Celebration of Discipline
I feel like at this point in my walk with God, I do understand that he speaks to me, that he WANTS to speak to me, and that all I have to do is listen… but there are times when I still try to figure things out on my own. Those times always end with a headache on my part! God did not create me to be “my own person”. He created me for HIS glory. He longs to be involved in every aspect of my life… he doesn’t develop selective laryngitis just so that I can do my own thing. Nope. He’s still there, waiting for me.
I think I’m going to love, and be challenged by this book.
Oh, and y’all… I was up at 5:15… ON A SATURDAY!!! I am not boasting in myself, and definitely not saying I have self-control down pat, but Jesus is where it’s at. He is IT. And, if I can’t spend time with him, the rest of my day is just blech.
Day 19 & Day 20: I’m not lumping these days together because they were insignificant… but because there was a good bit that went on that would require much more backstory. The end result is good… I had sometime happen that, in the past, I would have potentially taken personally, and I didn’t. Why? Because it wasn’t personal! I know that God has a plan. I know he is working it out in his timing, and with my best interest in mind. So, any delays or changes, or speed bumps in the part of the plan I can see are there for a purpose… HIS purpose. 🙂
Day 21… the LAST day!!!: I’d be totally lying if I told you I hadn’t thought the past 2 days about what I’m going to eat once Day 21 is over!! This is a bittersweet day. I tried to sum up my thoughts here. It’s a pathetic job; I really am having a hard time putting into print what I am thinking and feeling.
Day 22: Woke up this morning feeling a sense of peace. With God’s help, I made it through. So excited to know that the work He began during the fast will continue, regardless of the food I consume.