We are ALMOST to the fifteen month mark having Julianne home with us! It seems like a long time and a short time all at once. At this point, I don’t remember much of what our life was like before we had her. Four children is definitely a norm now, not something that surprises me. I’ve grown accustomed to looks, which makes me giggle because I know of so many families that are MUCH larger than ours!
Today her preschool had their annual Mother’s Day brunch. It was about the cutest thing I’ve ever seen. The kids sang a couple of songs, and then we got to eat together. There was also a picture taking area set up, and so we snapped one of the two of us.
She was cheesing pretty big for our picture; wanting it to be more like a snuggle-on-the-couch-at-home moment than a photo op, which is totally fine. She loves to look at the picture right after it is taken, to see herself sitting on my lap, my arms around her, her head snuggled against me.
Mother’s Day brunches, and flowers, and gifts cause thoughts about a nameless mama living far across the world to rise into my mind.
There are times when I wish I could just call up her China-mama and tell her how well Julianne is doing. I wish I could let her know how much joyous craziness this girl adds to our crew.
Fifteen months may seem short and long for me, and I know it probably does for you, too, China-mama. It has been a long time since you saw the face of your sweet girl, much longer than fifteen months, and I think if you saw her now, you would be proud of who she is. She’s learning what it means to be a good friend. She’s learning what it means to give generously and receive graciously. She has a sweet tooth that rivals anything I’ve ever seen before, and she loves to pretend that the water she’s drinking out of her plastic mug is coffee… just like mommy.
She doesn’t yet understand all that has transpired in her life, but know that we are holding you in a place of great honor, China-mama. I am privileged to be her forever-mama, but you were her first mama, and that’s something I will never forget.
She is a joy to those who know her, and fifteen months home have taught me that joy is something we can all use a little more of.
In a few days, China-mama, we will celebrate Mother’s Day here. All four of my children will gift me with the sweetest of homemade cards and gifts, and you will hover in the back of my mind, China-mama. Know that you are not forgotten on this day; that Mother’s Day is for you, too. I pray that you will experience a knowing-deep-in-your-knower… that you will be aware of the prayers whispered by a far-away-mama just for you.
Happy fifteen months home, sweet Julianne.
We love you to the moon and back.